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For a lifetime she had dark thoughts on her mind
Posted on Tuesday November 08, 2016
This past weekend was my second FaerieCon and I had a great time.
When I attended last year, it was such a new environment for me that I probably didn’t really appreciate what a unique and welcoming community supports this con.
This year, I made an attempt to go in with a more positive attitude and even bought myself a costume to wear to the masquerades each night. This kind of “all-in” approach made the whole experience so much better. I reunited with many of the folks from the previous year and made a lot of new friends as well. Many drinks and stories were shared, and it was a blast seeing all of the amazing costumes that people had prepared and wore during the weekend.
I had a great number of wonderful conversations at my vendor table and everyone who saw the early preview of The Ravens of Unresting Thought, expressed excitement and seemed genuinely interested to get their hands on a copy. I think the theme and mythology really seemed to resonate and I’m looking forward to the day when people will be able to really read and absorb what has been a long developing project.
As for where the project currently stands, here is what needs to be completed:
2 – full page illustrations
2- revise or replace illustrations
a few graphical elements to appear on some of the more text heavy pages
completed afterward text
So my new deadline target is the end of the year. Realistically, I think I’ll be done sooner, but always good to give myself some extra room for the unknown.
Somewhere along the lonely road I had tried to find you
Posted on Wednesday September 07, 2016
This is the second update I’ve written this week. The first one was too personal, paid to much attention to the man behind the curtain and I don’t think I’m ready to be that public just yet.
One of the many changes this summer has brought, has been an exposure to the concept of mindfulness.
a mental state achieved by focusing one’s awareness on the present moment, while calmly acknowledging and accepting one’s feelings, thoughts, and bodily sensations, used as a therapeutic technique.
It’s a very difficult concept for me, because I live so much in my head. I’m working on it though.
Speaking of working, how about an actual project update?
Here is the short list of all that remains to be finished on The Ravens of Unresting Thought.
Until next week,
Falling Off the Edge of the World
Posted on Thursday September 01, 2016
I think about closing the door
And lately I think of it more
I’m living well out of my time
I feel like I’m losing my mind
It’s easy to fool yourself into believing you have everything under control, that it’s just a bad day and that things will turn around eventually. You might actually even begin to believe it, but then that bad day turns into a bad week, a bad month, a bad year. You begin to wonder how it happened. Where did things go wrong? Who is to blame for all of this? Am I just cursed?
I should be at the table round
A servant of the crown
The keeper of the sign
To sparkle and to shine
You think you are amazing, but no one sees. No one cares. You feel alone and abandoned. Can’t they see? Don’t they know? There is no connection. You feel that absence and think… to hell with them. You will be a fortress, you will be your own support. You become a tower of invincibility, a self sustaining being living within the confines of your own mind. Again, it’s that illusion of control and it comforts you. Makes it easy to withdraw, makes it easy to push away, to become the repellent because that’s better than the disappointment.
Never, no never again!
Listen to me and believe what I say if you can
Never, this is the end
You know I’ve seen the faces of doom and I’m only a man
Help me, tell me I’m sane
I feel a change in the earth, in the wind and the rain
Save me, take me away
You know I’ve seen some creatures from hell and I’ve heard what they say!
It doesn’t make the loneliness go away though and now you only have your own thoughts to keep you company. So you become acutely self aware. You know that it’s all your fault. You know that you are not attractive enough, not smart enough, not friendly enough, not talented enough. You know that no matter how hard you try, you will just never be good enough. You will never be accepted. You will never belong.
I’ve got to be strong
Oh, I’m falling off the edge of the world
Think you’re safe, but you’re wrong!
We are falling off the edge of the world!
So there you sit, alone and cornered and helpless to do anything about it. You ruminate. You fixate. You become reckless and make decisions purely to see what happens, hoping that something, anything, breaks this cycle.
Look out! there’s danger! no where to run!
It seems like desperate measures but sometimes it has to be done
Over, it’s over at last
There’s a message inside as we build a new life from the past
Time to choose… either follow that road to the inevitable end or choose a new road.
We’re falling off the edge of the world!
Yes, the edge of the world!
It’s the end of the world!
So this is me, navigating strange highways. Trying new things. There are still many bumps in the road, but I can see a different horizon and maybe I’m feeling a tiny bit hopeful that this road will be different, that I’ll learn to enjoy the view along the way and find comfort among my traveling companions without the burden of predestination.
All of which is an artsy attempt to say… this summer has been full of change, and as a result this project had to take a backseat for a while until I could take care of myself a little better than I had been.
See you back here next week for some project metrics and a new sneak peak.
Dead, Dead, Dead Until Dark, In the Night We Are…
Posted on Wednesday June 15, 2016
One of my friends, a fellow creator, is very fond of the elevator pitch. If you’re not familiar with the term, it basically refers to the idea that you should be able to provide a summary of your project in the time it takes to ride an elevator, usually between thirty seconds to two minutes, and deliver it in such a way that it captures the attention of your audience.
I’ve listened to his version of this many times over the course of several years, when we had our tables next to one another at various conventions, and I’ve witnessed it work more often than not.
I think the key is to be able to find a common point of reference and describe your project in those terms. Usually, this takes the form of other more well-known or established properties.
By doing so, you can trade on the already formed opinions and emotional ties your audience my have to help pique their interest in what you are doing.
I’ve been thinking a lot about this in relation to The Ravens of Unresting Thought and how I’m going to try and present this project when I’m behind the table at a con or out in public.
Admittedly, I think this project is a difficult sell. It’s not “kittens and ice cream” and it’s not something everyone will love, or even like.
It’s dark, moody, personal and more than likely to cause many readers to feel the need to offer a trigger warning.
I do think there’s a beauty in all that melancholy though, a sense of shared connection, and a symbolism that will appeal to those not afraid to look in the dark corners of their own mind.
So how do I pitch that? How best to describe this book in a way that sets a realistic expectation, while at the same time warns away those too delicate, too young or too fragile?
Perhaps like this.
The Ravens of Unresting Thought is like The Bell Jar, if it had been written by Neil Gaiman.
We See Black Ravens Fly, There’s Fire in the Sky
Posted on Tuesday May 24, 2016
The past weekend saw the project reach a pretty significant milestone.
Up until this point, all of the text had been contained within a scattering of word documents, emails, notepad files, and memos saved on my phone. Largely this has to do with the nature of the narrative structure and how it all evolved over the course of the last two years.
As I’ve been working on the master layout, I’ve been placing that text where it belongs in the book, adding the art and creating the publishable file which will eventually go to the printer.
As of this weekend, all the text has finally been placed and the book can be read from start to finish.
There’s still art to be created and a few illustrations I want to revise or replace, but it’s now a real book.
This should put me on target for having the initial version done by the end of June, where I’ll then put a pdf in the hands of a couple of beta readers for feedback.
That’s a whole other level of frightening. So far, no one but me has read it. Still, based on story discussions I’ve had, I think it works at least on a conceptual level. I guess time will tell if the execution lives up to the idea.